Broken Heart Chronicles

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 21:18:54 GMT

today has been the worste and might be last day of my life
first it just seemed like cheyenne was avoiding me
then i faill most of my midterms
then when i thought the day was ok i ran into chey and randy
then i go home and saw the picture of cheyenne kissing randy

so right now im in a mood to just fucking die and could really care less if i do die
yeah i know call me selfish call me stupid call me emo but i do

I want to die

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 13:03:47 GMT

couldent evan do one favor for me a half of an hour to talk to me to help me calm down after i just faught with my mom

i justtold her what happened online

i really just wish she could have done this one favor for me

love her still

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 18:19:53 GMT

ok well yesterday was cool
i talked on the phone with chey in the morning and it was cool
then i hung around the house for a couple hours doing pretty much nothing at all
Then finally 6 came around and i left for the mcfeelys and black belt club shows
They were good the mcfeelys were as always fast and hardcore..
evan some of the other bands that played were good
so yeah thats pretty much it cheyenne aint pickin up her phone today so maybe i'll talk to her later

PEace

journal upgrade

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 03:19:59 GMT

ok i finally got the journal a little but of the way i want it. yeah its not the best but at least i got a diffrent look. Not sure if everything is set with me and chey. shes says i didnt ruin the day and i hope she means it. ok well im gonna go lay down or somthing now.

Cheyenen i love you
Bye

Sat, 21 Jan 2006 02:17:04 GMT

I feel so horrible...i had a great day with cheyenne everything was going great....then i talk to her online and i got upset with something and yelled at her...i felt really bad after and i applogized and that just made her more mad...she did say it was "fine" but i knew that she didnt mean it i knew she was mad as hell with me and i started freaking out oh and by the way when this does happen i dont evan know that im doing it....so she ignored me for the longest time and i dont want to talk about what happened in between that time...but now she is talking to me and i dont know i dont like preteneding things are ok and with every im i still am crying hoping she forgives me and i feel terrible cause i fucked up the whole entire day......why do i ruin eveything....

i love you still now and forever

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 21:00:23 GMT

eh today was ok i had a few rushes of being real sad......yeah but they got better, cheyenne if ur reading this i think what happened the other day you know the thing i told you was only cause of low sugar maybe i dont know.....im gonna keep an eye on it its really scaring me though...

Like i was saying though someone told me today that i need help, thanks for that one. Probally had nopthing to do with me and sean taping our heads and crap.

I dont know if it wasent for most of my friends i would defintly be in a complete state of depression.
Cheyenne has and i hope always will still be here and there for me. I thank her alot for that it really means alot that i can talk to her about things. Cheyenne if ur reading THANK YOU i mean that =)

Ok well im bored and i think im going to go write music or listen to it or play a game or soemthing maybe i'll go lay down or something

Bye

Cheyenne.....

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 23:33:59 GMT

I really miss her alot.

It is hard but as long as she dosent want me completly out of her life there is still a little bit of a reason to live

I just hope....

She dosent....

Forget me....

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 22:52:19 GMT

every time I open up my eyes
the innocence and purity goes
and I wake up every day blind
the innocence and purity is gone

you shouldn't say anything, not a word,
I feel no pain
I'm jumping out of windows screaming "finally!"
the clouds are at my fingers tips the sun within reach
I feel the heat before I hit I ground

forget me, forget my face, forgive me, and take everything

before it takes you, before it craves you...
before it takes you, remember, to take everything back

the innocence and purity is gone
the innocence and purity was gone

You know i still love you

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 20:27:07 GMT

god today was a mixed day, at first i called chey and she was on the other line...that just kinda upset cause she said she would call me the night before, so i got on to myspace and there was this picture of her and randy....that kinda just was a punch in the face. I guesse im better now though, i might not go on myspace and if i do im gonna have to like try not to look over at the friend thing....she said she would change it.

Now im just cold and bored, i got no one to talk to and all my music is getting old.

It feels like now whenever im out of my room....scratch that whenever im out of my bed i get depressed. Its nottin big i think im just tired.

I cant wait to actually get things workin with the GG Cover songs and crap...blah i dont evan thing i can do that.....oh well im gonna go lay down again

Peace

I Love You

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 21:37:55 GMT

((Tech Update))

My LJ is all fucked up so im sorry if its hard to read, i might fix it sometime soon...i'll still update though so just keep checking in....

Peace

I miss you

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 21:00:32 GMT

.....
I tried to go snowboarding at the hell down the streat but it sucked.
so now im back here infront of my computer doing notin and still alone.
Its sad cause i just read some of my old comments from my past post, back when me and chey were goin out.
I miss her alot.
Im gonna go lay down now.
Good Bye

the seventh day of the new year

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 18:12:59 GMT

4 more days....
yeah today it going really slow and i feel really alone today. I have like no one to talk to and its only like 1:09....wow its already felt like the day was almost over....damn this sucks

I'm hoping that cheyenne will call me later today. Yup and hectors phone is still not connected. I dont know about Eric yet maybe he and i could do something today. Feh yeah right im probally gonna be in this house for the rest of the day.

Yeah so here is a little something, its a video back durin the summer or sometime.

http://www.youtube.com/?v=3UcIopTdcKA

((Edit)) I could not get the video to stream directly onto my LJ so just click the link to watch it

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 21:44:12 GMT

Well im still tired and all that i actually got maybe an extra hour of sleep last night, im going to cheyenne tommarow and im kinda worried. Cause of alot of memorys are there and being with cheyenne. I mean im lookin foward to hanging out with her im just afraid that im, ahh i dont evan know how to explain it. It makes perfect sense in my mind but i cant type it out. Blah anyway im gettin ready to eat something.

Another thing is i might be going to the McFeelys show the 21st and thats gonna be cool. Only worry for me is they might be opening. Bleh i dont know but its gonna be cool

Well i'll update later maybe

Peace

Thu, 03 Nov 2005 00:21:04 GMT

ok bad news....i cant go to the prom

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 23:32:40 GMT

so i AM going to the prom....i have got the $40 to get my ticket and my parents are going to pitch in for the tux...cant wait....kinda pissed that i just found out about a mcfeelys concert tonite at the flywheel...i really want to go to that but i dont got a ride....that blows...i went to anime today and we filmed like a salem witch trials thing....we did this random acussing thing were we shorted out stupid things and then we all moshed to music and blah blah....i got to go to chey's for awhile to...so all around it was a good day....ok so now im going to go listen to more music and do other crap

OverDue Update

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 22:18:02 GMT

Wow its been awhile since i have updated my LJ....not like anyone reads it but anyway nottin to new....my Bday just passed and i got some cool stuff....i got the new HIM cd i got a psp and i got a few games....halloween was yesterday...me chey hector and hector's bro/cousin hung out...we were zombies and cheyenne was an angel...lol we scared people it was soooo fun....i went to 6 flags too the fright fest was cool and i went on a few rides too.....now im tired....im hopinh that chey can do something this weekend....im starting a new band kind of a hardcore punk band

Singer= Me
Guitar= Kevin
Bass= Still Lookin
Drums= Kenny (undecided)

so yeah thats kinda it im gonna go and listen to music write music and all that funn crap....

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 01:30:37 GMT

Yes i am finally posting again....Whats new...Well i started school again im in my sophmore year and well im going to school so blah blah blah here i am....nothing new has really happen...i was grounded this week and coudlent do anything with chey-chey....that really upset me...so we planned for this saturday i cant wait....while im on the subject im waiting for chey to call me now...she uasally calls me around 8 so im wondering wht is going on....i tried her cell she didnt answer so yup im still waiting...im siting here browsing the internet listing to music and updating my LJ....so yeah its about 9:13 and she cant talk after 9:30...so yeah my hopes aint to high for a call tonight....yeah....anyway...im starting to get ready to film im making....dont have a name yet but i guesse its going to be a kind of comdey/drama/music-video....kind of thing...really cant wait and with my cam erics 2 cams and maybe johns then we will have a good angle set up....Eric has had som expierence....hey good news chey-chey just called yay!!!....ok so yeah like i was saing the movies gonna be about friends and all that shit...kinda like each friends own style.....Metal head, Emo Kid, Goth Kid, Punk Rocker, ...and a "Normal Kid" you know that kind of kid that dosent really fall into any catigory.....so yeah i'll fill you all in later...SEE YA
I LOVE YOU CHEYENNE

Clip From The Band Film
"Dude I Dont Know What I Just Landed In"--Me after jumping

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 01:30:13 GMT

So heres what happened...i did not go to six flags ...i was so pissed....so instead the night before we rocked out playing games and listing to music till one-o-clock....around the time we were getting ready to go to sleep i called cheyenne...i just wanted to hear her voice and tell her i love her....she so cute...ok so then we slept till about 10....around that time we got up and ate some breakfest...then of course we played games until around 11:30...this is when me and hector decided to go to the mall...so thats what we did we got ready and around 12:00 we went over to the mall....we hung out there looking around and all that crap we do...we both got a poster and a game...i got a poster of the Band Misfits and he got a poster of HIM.....i got a game called Judge Dredd....He got Punisher....ther are both really good games....

I finally left his house around 6:30...the second i got home i called cheyenne of course...i had been dieing to talk to her and hear her voice and her to tell me how much she loves me...<3....she didnt answer....and thats where i am now..i have been calling alot dieing to talk to her but she isent answering...i just hope everything is ok i really want to talk to her...no one is evan answering the house phone and it is 9:00...i checked online and she chagnged her Myspace thing to .."Can You Say Drama"...that kinda made me worry a-bit...i just really hope everything is ok and i can talk to her tonight...i really really want to hear her voice again...i miss her so much and hope that we can do somthing probally monday...ok...im gonna go now...i think i'll try to get a hold of her again....

I love cheyenne

--Brian

OMGWTF...hey look an update

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 21:10:56 GMT

Ok so i think i might update...yup its been awhile...here we...I LOVE CHEYENNE...yes yes i do...i saw her the yesterday and monday we had a wonderful time....well we made out and [Censored]...lol ok so any way...im leaving for hectors today im gonna spend the night and then go to six flag..=D yes six flags....we gonna have alot of fun...omg i cant wait to go on all those spinner ride things...and the water park!!!...ok yeah i know its been awhile and this is a very short post but hey its me i dont make long posts and updates so there *sticks out tounge* but i am gonna do this

Seven Things I love about Cheyenne that she may not know about herself:Oh yeah hun im doing this to ;)

1.When she runs up behind me and hugs be from behind
2.When she lays against me
3.She looks me in the eyes and says she loves me
4.When She rubs my arm,chest,leg....etc
5.When she kisses my neck and stomach
6.When she sleeps on me
7.When she spontaneously hugs me and kisses me
-----------------------------------------------
trust me there will definitly be more

Cheyenne I love you with all my heart <33333333333333333

survey

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 15:50:24 GMT

Unique Questions For The Not-So-Normal And Very Stupid You
Created by CruelAngelsThesis and taken 32 times on bzoink!
Full name	Brian Forest
Age	15
Gender	male
Are you sure?	uhh yeah
Maybe you should check...	checks holy shit!...wait yep im a guy
Now that you've checked, b-day?	october 19 1989
Any nicknames?	Sweetness,Brian-Dude,Ol-Skool
Have you ever/Can you
said hello in a different language?	yes
choked on a jujube?	oh god yes
fell of an elephant?	almost
fell up the stairs?	all the time
said	said SAID WHAT
made a squirrel mad?	when i threw stuff at it
had a bird poo on your head?	nope
made someone cry?	....yeah
made fun of someone for no reason?	no
YOU SHALLOW PERSON YOU!!!	IM SORRY!!!
can you see the future?	i could if i wanted to
bend all the way backwards?	god i wish
rub your belly and pat your head at the same time?	does this now
live without your favorite clothing store?	dont know really
without your favorite band?	hell no
without food?	NO!
die and come back to life?	i wish i could
have you ever fucked someone?	nope
fucked yourself?	.......no
why are you looking at me like that?	dude!?!?!
moving on!	DUDE!?!?!
RaNdOm
dO yOu UsE sTicKy CaPs LiKe ThIs?	I HATE YOU I SHALL KILL YOU FOR THIS
are you obsessed with coffee like me?huh?huh?huh?	coffee COFFEE WHERE!!! COFFEE!!!
do you think your hot?	i dont judge guys
do people think your hot?	yup some
are you being concieted?	no
are you being stupid?	yes
am i being stupid?	a little
YOUR SO MEAN!	HAHA...ok im sorry
do you ever find yourself...listening to back street boys in your head?	no
are you a jackass or a bitch?	jackass
am i a jackass or a bitch?	jackbitch
Favorites
type of coffee :D :D :D :D	frenchvannila
toy store	kb
things to put in your coffee o0o0o0o0o	sugar sugar sugar!!!
song sung by your favorite musical group/singer on you fav album	Staind-Fade-Break the Cycle
ways to drink your coffee	PINKYS UP!!!!
technologic product	uhhhh
weird word	HONORIFICABILITUDINITATIBUS
ways to smell your coffee	with my nose
ways to feel your coffee	ohhh baby
thing in the whole world	computer
person in the whole world	cheyenne
How much do you...
think about the opposite sex?	alot
think about having sex?	god i am right now...J/K
think about coffee?	im drinking it now
think about having coffee?	RIGHT NOW
think about gay people	ummm
think about having gay people?	what?
like pres. bush?	I HATE HIM
hate kerry?	I HATE HIM TOO
love your mail man/woman?	i threw a snowball at him >.<
lie on surveys?	lmao
What is your outlook on...
Shiny things?	pokes
Pointy things?	pokes DAMN!!!
Big things?	hahahahaha
Small things?	thats not nice
Homos?	awww how cute
Hobos?	kicks
Purses?	does it match my shoes
Cheese?	eatsmmmmm
A shiny pointy thing that is big that carries a purse and eats cheese?	MY GOD A DREAM COME TRUE!!!
realtors?
Do you feel...
Sexy?	maybe
Horny?	wink
Coffee?	IT BURNS!!!
Monkeys?	monkey dance
Suicidal?	nope
Flabbergasted?	what the hell does that mean
uhhh....
So, are you ready?	IM READY!!!!
You know what.	what
Stop lying.	IM NOT DAMN IT
Do you like me?	oh baby
You're gonna make me cry :(	no way
lets hear abou me!	TYPO!!!
fine then! more about you. its all about you isnt!?	SHUT UP!!!! THIS IS ME TIME!!!ME TIME!!!!
Are YOU happy it's the 91st question?	holy shit really
This or...THAT SHINY THING OVER THERE!?
Homo or Hobo	kicks both
JoeBob or BillyBob	billybob
Coffee or Coffee?	omg to hard to choose
Eating poo or licking micheal jackson	runs away
cheesy pudding sticks or sticks with cheesy pudding	eewwww
you or me	I SAID ME TIME!!!!!
question or answer	YOU CANT HANDLE THE TRUTH!!!
barney or teletubies	grabs rifle
StIcKy CaPs or bottle caps	StIcKy Bottle Caps
baseballs or your balls(if you have them)	baseballs to the balls
geting hugged by a sumo wrestler or squishing a penguin	penguin
piggieturtle&name it mr.piggieturtle or afroheaded lama&name it the afro h-	dude?
eaded lama?oops ran out of space...	the second one?
Questions(or not) from ME to YOU
are you a little tea pot?	hear is my handle!!!
can i tip you over and pour you out?	im not in the mooood
if i do will coffee come out?	not coffe >=)
so, how much /do/ you like coffee?	10000000
tell me your deepest, darkest secret i wont tell i swear	NO!!
are in in love with your television?	nope its gay
or is the computer more your thing?	my computer loves the tv
do you like squishy pillows? i do.	yup yup
DONT /DO/ THAT!	IM SORRY I WONT!!!
the cheese monkey will attack you! didnt you know that	OH MY GOD!!!!
is sleeping necessary to you?	nah
would you ever hump a plastic gnome?	stares
what?	shakes head
We near the end. Any last words?	therapy
Just 15 more to go!^-^ How does that make you feel?	i dont know how does it make YOU feel
Who's the person you hate the most?	JOSH JOSH JOSH
Are you relaxed right now?	bounces of walls
Fill in the blanks
i love you you love me we're on happy family with a great big...	BANG BANG BNAG
Dude, where's my...	oh hsit wait i know this one
I'm too sexy for my...	uhhh.....DAMN!
just keep _____-ing and everything will be allright	Swim
God is..	Dog
The Bible is...	long
Coffee is...	GOOOOD
The Good Byes
Well i must say my farewell."farewell"Are you sad?Will you miss me?	yeah i must say i shall
Will you tell me all your thoughts about my oh-so-not-spiffy quiz?	what?
End?	NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
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Sun, 31 Jul 2005 22:50:54 GMT

well today was a good day....first i woke up and called my love cheyenne...i talked to her for awhile and then she had to go get ready for cape cod...she is leaving on monday and im gonna sooo mis her alot....ok so after i got off with her eric called around 11:00...so he said why dont you come over....so i left around 12:00 to go to his place....we hung out until 5:00 and did alot shit...we watched tv and we saw the 5 chapter R KElly video..."Locked in a closet".....it was set up as like a clifhanger soap opera for every single video to the song...it was cool.....then we saw little clips of the show 6 feet under....we saw some woman get dramaticly hit by a car and laughed...ok so what wierd is after we watched tv we went up to get pizza and you know what happen when i tried to run across the street...i almost got hit by a car...it was so freaky and then funny....we sat there at the curb and laughed for like 3 minutes then we went to the restraunt and ate some french fries and both got 2 liters of bottles of soda he got cola i got root beer...it was a good day....we praticed for the badn my bass and hiis guitar my screaming and hi melodic screamin.... so yeah good day then i went home and called chey and left a voice mail....then i got online and now im updating my lj and talking to my love Cheyenne....ok so im done....ill update you all later

I LOVE YOU CHEYENNE IM GONNA MISS YOU

WOW

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 12:04:57 GMT

ok yeah wow....dont know why but it just seemed fitting....okay so yeah here i am at summer school again waiting for the class to start.....today we got a sub....so im not really sure what we are going to be doing today.....probally lots of work....god this is gonna be fun....well at least i brought my cds today to listen to.....chey's goin on a field trip today so i hope she has fun....well i gotta get to work.....i'll update later....I love you cheyenne...See ya

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 00:52:50 GMT

okay wow hey a post that finally is coming from my home computer....okay so here it is..

So today after summer school i went to the movies with cheyenne....well first we went to her house and hung out until maybe 1 ish not sure....so we got to the theaters and paid for the movie and i had these really awsome fries.......So yeah we saw the movie fantastic four...omg great moive and great affects.....so yeah i give it an 8.5....after the movie we went to stop and shop...but first we ran over to Daddys Junky Music to look at gutairs and talk about my faulty cable i got....i have to bring in my old cable though to get a new one then i can finnaly rock out again.....yeah i suck though.....okay so thats the updat im gonna go do somthing else now.....

one more thing

I LOVE YOU CHEYENNE

LIVE FROM SUMMER SCHOOL!!!

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 12:16:36 GMT

well here i am at another fun filled day of summer school....again im here waiting for this class to start.....so again i feel like i should update my LJ....

Well its been awhile since my last update....i'll try to keep it short....

Okay first of all i have ben having a great time with my love cheyenne....swimming , kissing, you know all that fun stuff.....we went to the cape....that was fun i got a bunch of firecrackers and smoke bombs....bet you can guesse what me and hector did the next day *evil grin*....ok lets go into detail about what we did...smoke bombs were used to throw at each other....the tiny pull fircrackers came in boxes so i had two boxes of them i me had hectpor first sat there and set them off like bored little children.....then we put the thing in or mouths and pulled them and that entertined us for awhile......then we decided to put them all together....the tiny little POP became a larger BOOM...that was cool....yeah then when we used up all the firecrackers and stuff we did what we always do...bush jumping, roof jumping, jumping of my deck, flips, and of course wrestling.....

I would just like to leave out with saying one thing

CHEYENNE I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!!!!!!!!!!
<33333

another summer school update

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 12:21:46 GMT

yes again i am sitting here in front of a computer at summer school waiting for the class to start.....god i really hate this place.....well at least we got AC....its 8:20 and we are still waiting for the class to start....people are still coming in late and im tired and feel like im gonna fall asleep.....im happy that i got to see cheyenne the other day and she came over....that was a good time.....i like being able to see her in the mornings before summer school and then again before i leave.....oh boy the class is starting...updat you all later....